here’s the deal: i’ve lost my mojo.
it’s thursday night and i’ve just returned home from school. my last class took forever and it feels like i’m not getting anywhere with my students. the teenagers are getting the better of me… i’ve run out of ideas on how to get them talking. it’s a “conversation class” – which means we’re supposed to converse for 90 minutes. (okay, two sessions of 40 minutes with a ten minute break in the middle.) It’s a miracle if i get one of them to say more than three sentences. i’ve tried sports, rock, hip hop, online gaming, pets, family, fashion, parties, school, poetry, visual arts, movies – everything. harry potter worked for a while, but we’ve gone through all the books now…
i know they think swearing is funny – but i’m not comfortable with the idea of exchanging insults and cusses with 14 year olds.
fuck i feel useless. i just want to sleep. i honestly don’t feel like doing anything.
yup, i know – these are all little red flags saying auntie debra is visiting. time to take the risperdal again.
*sigh*